This week I am drawing a blank on a choice of topic.
I feel like I am screaming into the wind. I am yelling as loud as I can, but the wind is howling so no one can hear me. That’s not really true. With a blog my words are posted at some URL, and people can find and read it if they want. It’s more likely my 300 words are lost within the millions and billions of words written each day.
Readers can read my post “IF THEY WANT”. That’s the key point. Why would anyone want to read this?
Maybe I am like a rooster (my Chinese Zodiac sign), making a loud racket, full of self importance, which is annoying, upsetting or repulsive. Paraphrasing Carly Simon, “I’m so vain, I know this blog is about ME”
Maybe my words are harmless but trivial and not worth reading. Maybe the words are really boring and sleep inducing, like a scientific journal entry: …a retrospective study using an injection database included patients undergoing TKA with a minimum 1-year follow-up … blah blah blah…
I sometimes feel I am on a SETI mission (Search for Extra Terrestrial Intelligence) sending coded messages into the ether to contact previously unknown beings.
Regardless of the content, what are my intentions? What is my motivation for this blog? What do I want?
Am I after fame? Yes! I want to be an influencer with a fanbase of admirers that follow my extremely excellent and discerning preferences. I want to be an evangelist with a fervent desire to spread the word of RON to the unlearned and unartistic. I am motivated to be a ‘Donald’ type personality who can say anything- stupid or outragious or untruthful- so long as I am talked about. I want to get publicity, notoriety, ratings and even money (cryptocurrency, NFTs, rubles its all the same).
In the animal kingdom most animals are silent when exposed, and spend more time listening than making noise. Making too much noise may mean you are soon someone’s lunch. Maybe I would be better emulating an earthworm, quietly tunneling in my own humus, oblivious to the bigger world outside.
As the Rolling Stones have sung:
No, you can’t always get what you want
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But if you try sometime you’ll find
You get what you need
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krxU5Y9lCS8
So really I should be asking: What do I need from writing this post? I need to be honest and sincere, as if I am in conversation with a friend or someone I respect. Thats all.
I will write my post today and be grateful for whatever it returns. It really doesnt matter if anyone reads it. My satisfaction has come from the thoughts and ideas that stirred within me today.
In art there has to be darkness in order for the light to shine. Sometimes the dark negative shapes define the composition. What is not said often speaks as loudly as what is said.
In almost all works of art, it’s the empty space as much as the active space that creates the image. That’s what a painting needs.
